Shells

I know I love you
I just can´t feel it now,
perhaps I´m forgetting you,
if that is so I´m happy,
if that is so I´m sad.

There´s a battle from deep inside
up to the surface,
the necesity of a change,
the desire for a steady state.

And the collateral damaged of you in my everyday,
like loosing pieces of my skin
even when the wind softly blows
and I leave my bed full of the shells of my being when I sleep alone.

I know I love you
but I can't yet feel it.

Kindness

It is not about me anymore,
it's about everyone else now,
maybe despite myself.

It is time to move on,
but to move on with kindness and love
knowing I've done my best,
and knowing also,
that there's things out my control
and my desires
and my own strength.

I've loved and lost
and I'm so gratefull for that.
And I'm sure of this now:
people need to live and need to learn,
need to laugh and need to cry,
need to love and to be hurt,
only that way they can reflect themselves into the world.

It is not about me anymore,
it's about everyone else now,
and it's about love,
so go and love.

Perhaps sometime not so far

Perhaps some time not so far,

I will drive down that green road again,

get to Portola Road and go under that tree tunnel,

meet 84 and start my way up to you.

Pass Alice´s place where I will stop for gas and breakfast tomorrow,

roll the window down to feel the cold air,

get to that red farm house where we once stopped,

make a left on that tree in the middle of the street and park at your place.

Perhaps some time not so far,

I will hear your steps coming to the door,

And will hear your voice telling me to hold on,

And I will be as happy as nervous to see you.

Perhaps some time not so far,

We will sit at your table and have a homemade dinner,

Then I will listen to your stories.

And we will talk history and politics,

And clocks and radiuses,

And old telephone directories.

Perhaps some time not so far,

We will lay naked on your bed

My fingers will run through your thin hair again,

Back and ford,

While my tongue draws the curve of your neck.

I will throw my arms around you to find your hairy chest,

And my belly bottom will meet that scar on your back.

And I will fill my senses with your natural smell.

And you will feel my lips going down on you,

And I will softly kiss your butt skin like if it was a baby face.

Perhaps some time not so far,

You will fall asleep in my arms,

And you will be mine to love all night,

My hands will be full of you,

And if you wake up, you´ll find me looking at you,

And you will smile.

I will say good bye in the morning

with a short tender kiss on your small mouth.

Perhaps some time not so far from now.

Life and Time

Sometimes life’s a bitch

and reality makes you see things in color,

though you’d rather black and white,

it would be simpler that way.

Remember California?

Can’t believe is for gone now,

but even today if I close my eyes,

I can feel the snow

and smell the strawberry in your lips.

Time’s a bitch,

it was ours once,

but it was all just a cruel game.

For You

There’s always something special every time I think of you

in my days of joy or my saddest moments,

whenever we share a beer or when we look down,

every day in life I thank the Lord, for you.

And you’re my friend and you’re my brother,

even though you haven’t been there every step of the way,

I must find the way to forgive myself for that,

and I’m always a better person, because of you.

There’s times when we don’t think the same

and there’s times we walk on the road

wherever I find you in life my friend

I’ll never be alone, because you.

You push me to be my best version

but you don’t even know, of that I’m sure

don’t turn your back on me brother

but even if you do,

I’ll stick around, for you.

Letting Go

Woke up this morning with you fixed in my head

Same as yesterday and tomorrow you will be again

I know we got to let each other go

I guess we’re both trying

Not an easy road to go

I love you babe

And I can’t deny

I don’t want to stop my heart from doing it

But we got to let go

I’ll miss you as much as I love you now

In this bed where we laid forever

When time was timeless

And love was endless

Where we had meaning together

I love you babe

I just can’t deny

I don’t want to stop my heart from doing it

But we got to let go

11 Days...

Today again your remembrance comes to my memory

and I still keep you photos to which I turn from time to time

but is not like that how I remember you,

is not motionless with static laughter that I remember you.

I remember you in my arms, your body covered with my caresses,

with swollen eyes of tenderness, fixed to mine.

That is how I remember you.

We thought we were greater than the water beneath us,

but you see that everything ends, even the most intense and beautiful.

Surely I will draw on your memory a thousand nights after the last one,

and my lips will byte the corners of my pillow instead of your nipples.

But it's ok, ‘cause it was good while it lasted,

the Sun watched us put our hands together, and the Moon our bellies;

every single kiss was given with tenderness,

and every other with a bit of lust,

every single caress had the intention to find you,

and for 11 days they did.