11 Days...

Today again your remembrance comes to my memory

and I still keep you photos to which I turn from time to time

but is not like that how I remember you,

is not motionless with static laughter that I remember you.

I remember you in my arms, your body covered with my caresses,

with swollen eyes of tenderness, fixed to mine.

That is how I remember you.

We thought we were greater than the water beneath us,

but you see that everything ends, even the most intense and beautiful.

Surely I will draw on your memory a thousand nights after the last one,

and my lips will byte the corners of my pillow instead of your nipples.

But it's ok, ‘cause it was good while it lasted,

the Sun watched us put our hands together, and the Moon our bellies;

every single kiss was given with tenderness,

and every other with a bit of lust,

every single caress had the intention to find you,

and for 11 days they did.

Eleven Days

Eleven days passed away

But your memory I keep in my mind,

and in my heart.

I no longer have your kisses in my skin,

Thousands of caresses have been drained away,

but I still feel you.

For a hundred years your touch I will cherish

Even if other hands give me love,

Even if my head find rest in a different chest,

Even if the sun goes down.

Eleven days passed away

But I enjoyed every minute of it

Since the moment I saw you walking to me

Till the moment I kissed you good bye

and closed that door.

I even looked back to your window

from the elevator,

I didn’t see you there

and realized I was already missing you.

That beach

Is in days like this

Sitting in this office’s chair

That I close my eyes and go back to that beach,

The perfect spot when the sun surrendered to me

Remember that?

I can almost feel the sand in my toes

And the water in my waist

It was just me and the sunset

I melted into the orange

Your memory comes to me since then,

every time I witness a sunset.

Think of your face lighted up

doing that gesture with your mouth

you know what gesture…

And without you even knowing it,

I’m hugging you,

And without you feeling it,

I’m kissing you,

like sometimes I do in my dreams,

like I always do in my mind

when I’m awake.

Sadness

I’ve come this far in life

Happy I did it, sad I don’t have you

You were taken away from me

And I’ve missed you since then.

Time made me heal yeah

But days like today make me cry

I still go to bed alone at night

knowing dead is closer than before.

I don’t ask for you anymore

But I wish for someone to come along

Someone to stay and kiss me and hug me

In times when loneliness feeds on me.

Oh love It’s so sad!

Feeling going under darkness

I’m just the rests of a pity existence

So now I’m singing good bye.

To a Sad Friend

It’s raining outside my window

and I’m thinking of you

I know your world is troubled now

But I’m standing beside you.

I know you’re sad my friend

And the sky is not shiny but gray today

Don’t let your heart go down too far

I’ll be there to catch you, despite my delay.

And if you need to cry, cry

And if you want to yell, do

Cause today is the perfect day

It might be time for me to cry too.

I know you’re sad my friend

And the sky is not shiny but gray today

Don’t let your heart go down too far

Cause I’ll be there to catch you, despite my delay.

Even if I’m not there to hug you

Remember I love you my friend

And if this message goes through

The smile would be back in your face.

I know you’re sad my friend

And the sky is not shiny but gray today

Don’t let your heart go down too far

I’ll be there to catch you, despite my delay.

The longest night

The night ahead will be so long

Not sure that my mind can take it

For sure my heart will make it

Like it always does

When you’re not around.

My hands keep asking for you

Have no more excuses to make

Would I ever be back to you?

If I’m kicked out of this nightmare.

I keep wandering in my bed

Getting all the answers in my head

I know it and need to say no more

You my love, are the meaning of my world.

The night passed and it was so long

I have missed you for the last million years

This morning sun will dry my tears

But I’m just about to die alone.

Born to die together

I couldn’t sleep last night

something was missing

wanted to hold you tight

needed to feel you breathing.

Would you remind me

why are we so apart?

can’t stand myself as of yet

and won’t silence my heart.

We were born to die together

as we were meant to be forever

can’t believe you’re not here

need again to learn how to live

cause we were born to die together.

And yeah, I keep remembering

the moments that we shared

and the roads we used to take

the days and nights we changed

and the time we murdered in bed.

Cause we were born and we will die

no matter the time it takes us

no matter the place it will takes us.

Ride the storm

We know very well for this

we do care too much for this

brightness has gone from our days

are we still wanting for this?

Ride the storm of these days

and bring the joy back

we don’t need to hold hands

or saying it out loud

let’s just be together

and ride this storm.

This little fall out time

makes no sense anymore

don’t you think the same?

it’ll be always us after all.

Laughing out together

what a couple of fools

that’s the way it is  forever.

Ride the storm of these days

and bring the joy back

we don’t need to hold hands

or saying it out loud

let’s just be together

and ride this storm.

Mama

You brought me to this world

and I was introduced to life

I do know you from somewhere

dreamed before of your voice.

I bet not everything was joy

all the time you carried me in

though you smiled at me

as I was tearing your body.

did I hurt you Mama?

promise I didn’t want to

I just wanted to see your face

now I can’t help looking at you

as I feel your warm embrace.

The first time I said your name

you let your tears down

don’t want to see you cry again

forgive me Mama if I ever let you down.

I have loved you since forever

since I was just a dream, just a hunch

I will love you ‘til I banish

when the world see me turn into ashes.

did I hurt you Mama?

promise I didn’t want to

I just wanted to see your face

now I can’t help looking at you

as I feel your warm embrace.

Watching you walk away

I was there, sitting right next to you

the day you decided to go your way.

Just a moment after I was already alone,

watching you walk away.

You never said why or said I’m sorry

guess I was supposed to know

guess I will never know now

guess this is the end of our story.

As I watch you walk away

and your silhouette disappear

can’t help myself from crying

tears running down my face.

Baby where you’re going?

You’re coming back, aren’t you?

I’ll now close my eyes

when I open them again

will find you back in my life.

You never said why or said I’m sorry

guess I was supposed to know

guess I will never know now

guess this is the end of our story.

You’re still lying next to me

Heard a sound in the middle of the night,

get off bed and go to check

thought it was you but no,

I’m all alone, all by myself.

My mind plays tricks on me

my heart is the one missing you

there’s an empty space in my bed

and I just lay down next to it again.

I look up for your touch

and still whisper in your ear

this night is so cold

and I swear to God

I feel you, still warm in my chest.

In my mind you’re still lying next to me

in my heart you will always be

this night is so long babe

but you’re still lying next to me.

Miss your kiss, miss your touch

in my body, in  my soul,

and you’re still lying next to me.

I look up for your touch

and still whisper in your ear

this night is so cold

and I swear to God

I feel you, still warm in my chest.

Departing train

There’s a train departing tomorrow,

I’ll be on it, with my bags in hand

and all I ever was in the chest,

are you coming with me babe?

Will wait for you till the last minute

if you want me to,

but I must be on it babe

and I want you to go with me.

So shake the dust off

and package your bags

meet me at the station

and let us forever be in love.

You know that you want it babe

and I know we both nee it

to get on that train

to travel the distance

and just let it be together.

So shake the dust off

and package your bags

meet me at the station

and let us forever be in love.

Change

I have to make so many changes in my live,

I’m afraid of not finding the way,

So may endeavors, so many roads to take,

I have to take control, so many decisions to make.

I can be as free as a bird, can I?

to take my life where I want it to be,

putting things aside,

to be what I will always be.

Working on my own

It’s not an easy thing to do

gotta be alone

as lonely as I can be

to make myself love me

to reflect on the water one day

to just love what I see.

Come on courage,

help me find the way,

show me what you can do

even if it causes any pain,

what I really want is you,

spinning around my days.

Now I’m singing myself good bye,

will see me behind,

will meet myself ahead,

hope in the pocket it’s all I take.